Why am I doing all of this? Is it for me, for strangers, for kids, for my husband? What is the real reason I am attempting to make changes in my life? In the past I have tried to make my "why" a purpose that would effect my children or my husband or the way I am seen by others. Truth is I have absolutely no control over what other people think of me. That includes my husband and my children.
Perhaps my Why isn't about them, but about me! Sure I want my husband to appreciate my body, appreciate a clean house and complement me about that, but that doesn't drive me to get out of bed in the morning. I want to live to see my kids grow old and play with my grandchildren. I want my children to learn healthy habits now so that they don't struggle to learn them when they are older. But those thoughts are all in the great future and I can use procrastination as an excuse. It doesn't effect me now.
So in what seems like a selfish act, I have come to realize that my reason why is all for me. I want to feel good. I want to have a healthy body that can do anything I ask of it. Head stand, sure why not. Lift 100 lb bags of flour? I can do that. Run a couple miles, no problem! I want to be able to feel strong and full of energy. I want to have a clean and organized house so that I have time to play. So that I get to write on this blog, play on Facebook, or even help with the business without procrastinating things and without guilt! (My hubby always says I am too busy to take on more...it's not true, I just have not prioritized yet) I want a balanced budget and lots of savings so that I don't feel guilty when I buy things for me, things I want.
So even though all of these things are all for me...they really effect those around me even more. The key is that I am doing it for me. I am taking charge and 100% responsibility instead of allowing it to be someone else's reason, someone else's fault. The buck stops here. I am in charge and I am doing it for me!
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